I'd like to drive. Like, legally because that's the only the parents will get me a car. I'd like to drive myself anywhere I'd like to go. I won't have to bug anyone to take me or pay the expensive cab fare. I can go anywhere I want, whenever I want.
You don't have to get all prissy when I needed to go to tuition.
Or need to get some revision books.
Or bind last minute projects.
Or fulfill my insanely outrageous food cravings.
Or get a cup of those Starbucks goodness.
I'd drive myself home.
You don't have to wait for me to call you.
Or call me when I went past 9.00 p.m.
Or get prissy when I asked you to pick me up.
Or get prissy when there's traffic jam.
I'd drive myself to school.
And you don't have to bug me to be early.
I don't have to bug you to not get me late.
I don't have to hear your whines when some car just wouldn't budge from our front gate.
I'd get to listen to Pheonix and Army Navy and it wouldn't be deemed as Satanic music.
I don't have to listen to the morning tazkirah because it does nothing to get me all hyped up.
I'd dance in the car when Travis' Selfish Jean appears in my playlist.
And it'll all be fun and fine.
I don't have to pretend that I'm absurdly happy when I reach school because I genuinely am. I don't have to hate myself for wanting to whine because I no longer need to whine that I'm late because of you. I don't have to hear all those crappy pop songs on radio because I'll put in my own mix CD and I'll be dancing and dancing. I'll be genuinely cheery. There's no need to fake it.
But truthfully, I won't get it and you won't get me. I'm far too young and will always be far too young. Far too reckless, far too relentless. I'd drive high and low and you wouldn't let me experience such joy. You'll still have to send me to school, I will always have to hear your grumpy grunts and whiny whines and I will never be early ever again.
Current Location: somewhere I've never been to.
Current Mood: angry and better and better and better. Satisfied!
Current Music: Undercover Martyn- Two Door Cinema Club
p/s this girl will never stay.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
let's just blame ourselves for the fallout.
This will be a very brief post.
Stop bringing everything back up.
Stop blaming everyone else but yourself.
Stop assuming things.
Just drop it.
Smile and shake hands for your religion tells you to not hold grudges.
Accept things as it is.
Move on.
Try not making it harder for the rest of us.
Thank you.
Current Location: on the run
Current Mood: in tryingtopretendineverreaditland
Current Music: Sweet Disposition- The Temper Trap
p/s it would be amazing if I ever hear The Temper Trap live.
Stop bringing everything back up.
Stop blaming everyone else but yourself.
Stop assuming things.
Just drop it.
Smile and shake hands for your religion tells you to not hold grudges.
Accept things as it is.
Move on.
Try not making it harder for the rest of us.
Thank you.
Current Location: on the run
Current Mood: in tryingtopretendineverreaditland
Current Music: Sweet Disposition- The Temper Trap
p/s it would be amazing if I ever hear The Temper Trap live.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
banana and cashew
I have recently changed my Add Maths tuition (no, my recent stellar performance in it had no influence whatsoever in this change) to the one with Madam Chuan(?, correct me if I'm wrong). With the expanding number of tuition mates (private tutoring with Miss Yeoh consists of only me and Farah), tuition just got even more interesting.
There's about almost ten students in that small, crowded classroom and only three students were not from Seafield. I wasn't really familiar with all of them but hey,I have seen them around school except for this one guy; Joshua. Dude is funny as hell. Our first encounter was when Xiao Hui told him my Add Maths marks and he was all like 'whooaaaa' and kept asking me all these questions. I tried to answer them and nonchalantly as possible but it was hard not to laugh. I put a ginormous amount of effort to suppress my laughter.
So, last Thursday (the hype still has yet to die down now that all of us has already received our marks), the teacher was like 'How much y'all get?' and stuff and surprisingly, one guy failed. It was pretty surprising because as far as I know he's pretty smart. Joshua, however passed! The lot of them were quite surprised by his success. Never mind that. Let's skip to the fun part.
Xiao Hui told Joshua about the guy who failed (Joshua was late so he didn't know then) and Joshua was teasing the poor fellow. After he got bored, he went ahead and ask Tuen Tjun "You got banana or cashew?" OhhhhmyGoddddd, really? Tuen Tjun had a wtf face on and answered "Banana. Of course la." Joshua then asked "You know or not what is banana?" Cue another of course la.
They got on and on until Joshua said that he has a banana tree and he can give some to Tuen Tjun for him to lick and suck or what ever it was the he suggested. I couldn't really remember because I was trying really, really HAAAAAAAARD to not to burst out laughing on the floor. That was when the teacher has had enough.
She went all "Joshua, stop. You think I don't know what you're talking about, ah? No dirty jokes in my class."
I guess that was the last straw. After that, we all just resumed with our workload. Or is it? Well, that's as far as I can recall.
Have I mentioned that the barristas at Starbucks are meant to make your knees buckle? Oh well, now I did. They're soooooooo cute! Ohh, I love an empty Starbucks and when they have Liyana Fizi on the speakers, it just had me falling in love with it all over again.
Current Location: Sadranan beach, anyone?
Current Mood: tiiiiiiiired !
Current Music: Sea Wolf- the Violet Hour
p/s am in lo- lo- lo- love with A Love Beach, Sadranan by Answer Sheet and The Fallen by Franz Ferdinand. Clash of the genres much? Hahahaha.
There's about almost ten students in that small, crowded classroom and only three students were not from Seafield. I wasn't really familiar with all of them but hey,I have seen them around school except for this one guy; Joshua. Dude is funny as hell. Our first encounter was when Xiao Hui told him my Add Maths marks and he was all like 'whooaaaa' and kept asking me all these questions. I tried to answer them and nonchalantly as possible but it was hard not to laugh. I put a ginormous amount of effort to suppress my laughter.
So, last Thursday (the hype still has yet to die down now that all of us has already received our marks), the teacher was like 'How much y'all get?' and stuff and surprisingly, one guy failed. It was pretty surprising because as far as I know he's pretty smart. Joshua, however passed! The lot of them were quite surprised by his success. Never mind that. Let's skip to the fun part.
Xiao Hui told Joshua about the guy who failed (Joshua was late so he didn't know then) and Joshua was teasing the poor fellow. After he got bored, he went ahead and ask Tuen Tjun "You got banana or cashew?" OhhhhmyGoddddd, really? Tuen Tjun had a wtf face on and answered "Banana. Of course la." Joshua then asked "You know or not what is banana?" Cue another of course la.
They got on and on until Joshua said that he has a banana tree and he can give some to Tuen Tjun for him to lick and suck or what ever it was the he suggested. I couldn't really remember because I was trying really, really HAAAAAAAARD to not to burst out laughing on the floor. That was when the teacher has had enough.
She went all "Joshua, stop. You think I don't know what you're talking about, ah? No dirty jokes in my class."
I guess that was the last straw. After that, we all just resumed with our workload. Or is it? Well, that's as far as I can recall.
Have I mentioned that the barristas at Starbucks are meant to make your knees buckle? Oh well, now I did. They're soooooooo cute! Ohh, I love an empty Starbucks and when they have Liyana Fizi on the speakers, it just had me falling in love with it all over again.
Current Location: Sadranan beach, anyone?
Current Mood: tiiiiiiiired !
Current Music: Sea Wolf- the Violet Hour
p/s am in lo- lo- lo- love with A Love Beach, Sadranan by Answer Sheet and The Fallen by Franz Ferdinand. Clash of the genres much? Hahahaha.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
hush , the dead are dreaming .
Ignore the title, I am not going to go all morbid here but it is somewhat related to what I feel like saying. Dreaming. No It's not dreaming at- the- night dreaming, it's what do you dream of doing.
Today. during English, the teacher asked us what are our dreams. I could feign ignorance in front of 38 other students, but honestly, I was wondering. Am I that aimless? I have no idea what to be when I grow up but then something hit me. When did dreams have to be ambitions? I realized that I have one ultimate dream; finding all the flavours of Hershey's Kisses and find the perfect one for myself. As for now, I nominate the Cherry Cordial Chocolate Kisses as my favourite :D
The trainee teacher thought that my dream was cute. I find that telling to the whole wide world rather embarrassing (my mind have a mind of its own). My dream was to go around the world collecting Kisses? People must have that I was crazy. Thank God, I did not say out loud the #1 thing to do on my 'What Happens When I Gained RM40 million' list. It would have been weirder and I shall not mention #1 either here.
Oh to hell with what people think. What are dreams if they were not fantastical, right? I mean if I dreamt of traveling the whole world (which I totally do at times, but I don't have a clear vision how or where), my dreams would have been the same as another ten students in my class (no offence, Nina). It would not have been fun that way. Besides, how many citizens of Earth dreams of traveling the world? Probably billions.
Am I going to be just another girl in a billion of other people? Ehh, sorry, mate but no. I am going to be that one person with the one dream. Anyways, enough about dreams, I shall now step back into reality.
Us students got our test papers back and it was a little off- balance for yours truly. If I succeed, I scored amazingly but when I don't, I practically failed (okay, no, that was an exaggeration). I hope those damned marks balance out and I get to top my class. It has been reaaaalllyyyyyy long since I placed first (it's not that important, really. How you fare in the tests are way more important) and I'd like to be first once in a while. What's the harm in dreaming, right?
Okaaaaay, can't seem to go off topic with the dreaming thing. Whatever. AH! I have discovered that you do not need weed to get high (some say you NEED MGMT but Iman and I prove people wrong). All you need is an amazing friend and random things (like dinosaurs on the Wudo board or galaxies on the Bomba board).
It's true! And it's pretty hard to get off the high moment where you laugh for Godknowswhat reason and everything just left your mind. Whatever it is, it is a happy time, an epic moment and I wonder if anyone out there ever felt like I did.
Current Location: in awwwwwland
Current Mood: happy, truly. we'll see in a few minutes if I could get happier
Current Music: Answer Sheet- Summercat (Billie the Vision and the Dancers cover)
p/s these awesome Jogjakarta duo (Answer Sheet) is totally breathtaking. If there's anyone reading this, please do check em out !
Today. during English, the teacher asked us what are our dreams. I could feign ignorance in front of 38 other students, but honestly, I was wondering. Am I that aimless? I have no idea what to be when I grow up but then something hit me. When did dreams have to be ambitions? I realized that I have one ultimate dream; finding all the flavours of Hershey's Kisses and find the perfect one for myself. As for now, I nominate the Cherry Cordial Chocolate Kisses as my favourite :D
The trainee teacher thought that my dream was cute. I find that telling to the whole wide world rather embarrassing (my mind have a mind of its own). My dream was to go around the world collecting Kisses? People must have that I was crazy. Thank God, I did not say out loud the #1 thing to do on my 'What Happens When I Gained RM40 million' list. It would have been weirder and I shall not mention #1 either here.
Oh to hell with what people think. What are dreams if they were not fantastical, right? I mean if I dreamt of traveling the whole world (which I totally do at times, but I don't have a clear vision how or where), my dreams would have been the same as another ten students in my class (no offence, Nina). It would not have been fun that way. Besides, how many citizens of Earth dreams of traveling the world? Probably billions.
Am I going to be just another girl in a billion of other people? Ehh, sorry, mate but no. I am going to be that one person with the one dream. Anyways, enough about dreams, I shall now step back into reality.
Us students got our test papers back and it was a little off- balance for yours truly. If I succeed, I scored amazingly but when I don't, I practically failed (okay, no, that was an exaggeration). I hope those damned marks balance out and I get to top my class. It has been reaaaalllyyyyyy long since I placed first (it's not that important, really. How you fare in the tests are way more important) and I'd like to be first once in a while. What's the harm in dreaming, right?
Okaaaaay, can't seem to go off topic with the dreaming thing. Whatever. AH! I have discovered that you do not need weed to get high (some say you NEED MGMT but Iman and I prove people wrong). All you need is an amazing friend and random things (like dinosaurs on the Wudo board or galaxies on the Bomba board).
It's true! And it's pretty hard to get off the high moment where you laugh for Godknowswhat reason and everything just left your mind. Whatever it is, it is a happy time, an epic moment and I wonder if anyone out there ever felt like I did.
Current Location: in awwwwwland
Current Mood: happy, truly. we'll see in a few minutes if I could get happier
Current Music: Answer Sheet- Summercat (Billie the Vision and the Dancers cover)
p/s these awesome Jogjakarta duo (Answer Sheet) is totally breathtaking. If there's anyone reading this, please do check em out !
Thursday, February 17, 2011
crispy, gooey chocolate waffles
Warning: Crispy and gooey chocolate waffles may induce rempitzz-ness, nigga/ environmental freak- ness. I assure you, that is the truth!
Who does not like waffles? Those crunchy thingies with various flavour spreads in em. YUM YUM YUM! Well, I believe (we believe; Adilah, Nina, Rash and I) that that yummy thing contains something very, very lethal. It all began on one fiiiiiiine Friday.
Like usual, Adilah ripped off Tas' money and started to spend it. She was hungry so, she bought chocolate waffles. I thought that they looked incredibly yummy (and I guess I was hungry too) so both of us shared it. For THE FIRST TIME EVER, the damned waffles were crispyyyyyyy and had an enormous amount of chocolate spread in it. Surprisingly, I must say. Usually, it will be soft and had little spread in it. Call us lucky :D
Both Adilah and I were fine, that is until Biology rolled in and we were in the lab. Adilah started singing (I forgot what she sang) and then when she sang Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles, something happened. I believe, a rush of hyperactivity just shot in me (and her too). We sang the song with so much spirit (the piano bit was really, really exciting and fast- paced in our version).
Then, some rempitzzz soul possessed(?) us. We started talking in rempzz style and let's just say, laughter was inevitable. Especially when Nina refused to join in (she had to complete her PEKA, totally understandable) but it was so, so, so, so obvious that she was refraining herself from laughing. She was grinning and she did the weird thing with her mouth. Teasing her with our rempzz talk and Siapa Ni? was absurdly fun. And so we did for two periods (Adilah even talked rempzz style with Puan Latiffah which made the both of us laugh even more!) and by the time it was the last period, both Adilah and I were worn out with all the rempzzz.
Anywayzzz, we concluded that it was the Awesomeness of the chocolate waffle that drove us into insanity. And our theory proved to be correct when we ate it today and we went on a frenzy (not so much this time though because the waffle wasn't as crispy) and we made our first waffle- related mistake today. Letting Rash eat it.
Dammmnnn, girl became an environmental freak shouting that the plastic spoon is haram (it's illegal on Friday only, by the way) and she pulled Izyan's green bag saying that Adilah should be more green like Izyan and don't waste paper (wattaafakk ?). She also started being extremely nigga- like and began impersonating Puan Jega and called her Lady Jega (whaaaaaaat?) which was really, really really weird. We started to leave her when she decided to point her boobs out because that was just EXTREMELY weird.
Anyways, Rash's birthday is gonna come soon (19th Feb!) and we probably are gonna go celebrate it! Yippeeeeeee :D
Current Location: in secretaryland
Current Mood: tiiiiiired!
Current Music: Primal Scream- Can't Go Back
Who does not like waffles? Those crunchy thingies with various flavour spreads in em. YUM YUM YUM! Well, I believe (we believe; Adilah, Nina, Rash and I) that that yummy thing contains something very, very lethal. It all began on one fiiiiiiine Friday.
Like usual, Adilah ripped off Tas' money and started to spend it. She was hungry so, she bought chocolate waffles. I thought that they looked incredibly yummy (and I guess I was hungry too) so both of us shared it. For THE FIRST TIME EVER, the damned waffles were crispyyyyyyy and had an enormous amount of chocolate spread in it. Surprisingly, I must say. Usually, it will be soft and had little spread in it. Call us lucky :D
Both Adilah and I were fine, that is until Biology rolled in and we were in the lab. Adilah started singing (I forgot what she sang) and then when she sang Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles, something happened. I believe, a rush of hyperactivity just shot in me (and her too). We sang the song with so much spirit (the piano bit was really, really exciting and fast- paced in our version).
Then, some rempitzzz soul possessed(?) us. We started talking in rempzz style and let's just say, laughter was inevitable. Especially when Nina refused to join in (she had to complete her PEKA, totally understandable) but it was so, so, so, so obvious that she was refraining herself from laughing. She was grinning and she did the weird thing with her mouth. Teasing her with our rempzz talk and Siapa Ni? was absurdly fun. And so we did for two periods (Adilah even talked rempzz style with Puan Latiffah which made the both of us laugh even more!) and by the time it was the last period, both Adilah and I were worn out with all the rempzzz.
Anywayzzz, we concluded that it was the Awesomeness of the chocolate waffle that drove us into insanity. And our theory proved to be correct when we ate it today and we went on a frenzy (not so much this time though because the waffle wasn't as crispy) and we made our first waffle- related mistake today. Letting Rash eat it.
Dammmnnn, girl became an environmental freak shouting that the plastic spoon is haram (it's illegal on Friday only, by the way) and she pulled Izyan's green bag saying that Adilah should be more green like Izyan and don't waste paper (wattaafakk ?). She also started being extremely nigga- like and began impersonating Puan Jega and called her Lady Jega (whaaaaaaat?) which was really, really really weird. We started to leave her when she decided to point her boobs out because that was just EXTREMELY weird.
Anyways, Rash's birthday is gonna come soon (19th Feb!) and we probably are gonna go celebrate it! Yippeeeeeee :D
Current Location: in secretaryland
Current Mood: tiiiiiired!
Current Music: Primal Scream- Can't Go Back
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